J.O.B

i have tried really hard to not let the recession get to me. its not helpful that every time i get in my car, turn on the tv, or get on the internet i hear news of more job layoffs. yesterday on NPR they reported that within the past two months there have been well over a million layoffs. that's a lot. i feel so much sympathy for those people who have worked their butts off to support their families and now are left with no income. but as selfish as this sounds, i am even more terrified for adam and i. think about it...we are graduating this may and stepping into an economy that hasn't been so bad in i don't know how long. are we going to be able to find a job?

today we are both going to the internship fair at mtsu to check out some possibilities. we stayed up late last night working on resumes, but i just keep thinking "what if its all hopeless?" what if we had to keep working at the hospital for the next 10 years. i really don't think i can do that (especially since i'm allergic to all the soap, gloves, and foam there that we have to use 100 times a day. my hands have been broken out and oozing since september). to make the matter even more grim, i got on our schools career website to check out job postings. I looked at about every field in every state and felt like there was nothing. for the first time since declaring my major i wondered if i shouldn't have just stuck to finance...no one wants a sociology major.

i did get to talk to steph bales a bit last night (on gchat no less...what a life saver!). i was telling her how i wish God would just say "this is what i want you to do and where i want you to do it." she was so good to point out his timing and that he has the best plans for adam and i...better than we could do ourselves. i know in my head that his timing is perfect, but i also know i am soooo impatient. i just keep praying for patience, trust, and a really really clear path.

the good news is that my outfit for the internship fair is pretty bangin haha! chels, you would be proud